Circle of Life

I am a bit depressed this few week as when I look at the news nothing comes really good out of it. Recently I am watching a jap drama called LIFE where school bullying is the main theme in the show.The main character Ayumu is always bullied by Manami and her gang and the focus of the show is how Ayumu stands up to all the bullying and make new friends.The sunflowers is also very symbolic in this show,encouraging people who are being bullied to be like sunflower and always looking towards a better tommorow by standing up to the bully. When I watched the show I find it similar to some of the things happening around us. Recently there is sudden craze within the SMRT workers to catch people who they think are trying to shortchange the SMRT. The situation is really bad when they start handing out fines like flyers.They even advertise on TV that we will be fined if we are caught shortchanging SMRT. I am not saying that it is right for people to shortchange SMRT. However, I am more concern abt the attitude SMRT is currently adpoting, which is not the way to solve the problem as it will affect how people feels abt SMRT (which is like the majority of Singaporean as most of us take public transport),making the life in Singapore seem so cold and unfriendly, worsing the relationship between the peole and SMRT. Even if no one makes noise does not means it is pleasant to the reciever. People always have the attitude that as long as it doesn't affect me it is ok for me,but is it really ok to leave things as they are is a question we all need to ask ourselves.Eventually one day when luck is down...we will become the unlucky one being bullied, and who in question will like to receive the same treatment? Everything that goes come back to you eventually.

Finally got kureha...

Wow...I finally got her after much effort and trouble.I remember seeing her during march or april this year through people's blogs and reviews.I fell in love with her and have been trying to find her but because she is released in October last year and rather popular,I really had a hard time finding her.If not for Panther and Double....probably I would have given up on her already...like the fate of many other things in life that I like.Well she is 1 successful case and just looking at her...makes me feel that all the trouble is worth it.She is really special...her expression ,her posture....kind of makes people feel that she is in deep thoughts and looks so considerate in doing it.She is just so beautiful in my point of view.Well,she is my first figuring and worthy to be the start of my collection.

Doubts of my love for the Japan culture

Well recently,I have read about the Nanking Massacre that happened during world war 2 it really kind of shocked me that Japanese are capable of doing such horror beyond horror stuff.Any one with only a tiny bit of human feelings will not be capable of committing such crimes.It really repulsed me and make me reflect on if is it really right for me to be so in love in their culture when they are capable of doing such things not too long ago in the human time line.

I am afterall ,similar to all chinese in singapore, have roots in China and to really realise the real horrible picture of the truth of what happened in Nanking Massacre really kind of wake me up.I have from young being naturally attracted to the japanese culture.Maybe it was the jap era that I was constantly exposed to from young that developed my love for the culture and anything to do with japan.My very first love as most of my friends would know is sailormoon.I am not really that passionate about it now,but it still holds a very special place in my heart,being my friend and seeing through difficult times when I was younger and lonely.I guess that I will not be able to kill my love for the jap culture as it has really shared many memories with me.However,the knowledge of Nanking Massacre has both served as a warning and a reminder not to love anything blindly except maybe my family.The above is a picture of the hell girl.She is someone that helps ppl to take revenge for the ppl who are bullied and not able to take the revenge on the bullies by sending the bullies to hell.I suppose if this hell girl really exist,many nanjing ppl will gladly call the hell girl,something I can understand.Well but revenge on one another will nvr end but something this terrible,revenge will always remain in ppl heart I suppose.When can we ever be as peaceful as hell girl in the heart?

After Exams?

Well, no matter how stressed I am over my exams...it is over.I nvr imagined that life could be be worse than JC days but...yea...I was wrong again since I realised that this sem I can even kind of lose some of my sleep over it(something that has nvr happened before).However,I have to admit that I nvr regretted my decision for the course I choose,as althought it is a tough route and the 1 yr that I have survived with numerous bumps and scratches.I really like it here in ntu.The things I study seems to make alot more sense and practical then the normal stuff like physic and chem.Although,I still have to deal with math in this course,I don't hate math anymore even though I cannot excel in it due to my poor foundations in math.I think the process was made alot more durable and fun coz of my friends I have in my course.They really helped me along the way,and I really appreciate it.Well I was so stressed over java that I cried over it but well it was worth it as I finally find myself kind of understanding what is really going on.Changes is also a constant thing happening in this sem.My friends got attached one after another, and for the first time in my life I get to live a life of a teenager.I nvr had the chance to have friends with bf and this is really my first,so naturally I was not used to getting less attention from my friend than last sem.Well I got used to it but my friend is still suffering from not realising that paying excessive attention to bf is not a wise practise.Hope she realises it someday....and well if she still needs me I will still support her as a friend.Life is really complicated but for me...I want to keep it simple.My friend Jason on one ocassion have asked me what goals do I have in life?It did not took me long to reply as I have unconciously had the ans in my heart for sometimes before he asked the qns.Firstly,I only hope to be able to try my best in whatever I do and to be able to support my family and myself and secondly to earn enough to go Japan for a tour.I realised that among my many thoughts and desires,no matter how stupid my goals sounds...this is the 2 that are really important to me at this point in time and really defines why I am still here in this world.I hope that by writing my goals here will remind myself that how simple life can be and if years down the road in my life...I will bear in mind that I only yearn this much to be happy on the year when I am 20.

I am sinking...Shld I carry on rowing or leave the boat?

Well this picture is quite a mismatch with how I feel now.I have recently failed my accounting test coz I think I did not spend enough time on it and now I am trapped in the dilema of whether to S/U it or not. I got many different views on the subject itself but my mum advice made a lot of sense.Since I have to also need to work hard to ensure myself to pass I might as well work a bit harder to score on it after all the test is only 20%.Now it comes only the problem of if I am willing to work hard for it.I think i am going to work hard for it and push myself to the limimt like the Corbin Bleu song push to the limit.I am going to adpot the song titile as my motto for this sem and hope that everything turns out well.Well god bless me....since I got put in the effort, nothing to balme myself right?One problem solved thanks to my mum advice.

School is finally starting again.....

Well....sch is here again.....this sem taking 3 core and 2 electives.The electives are astro and accounting.Well astro is quite interesting as it talks abt the stars and planet and even question the orgins of human beings.Although it is interesting,a lot of ppl want to take it coz it is relatively easy to score.(Well...lots of Singaporeans are very score-oriented rather than interest oriented so...not much to say....well then again it may be also because there are not much electives to choose from and all the interesting ones are taken up...who knows?).I will try to do my best for all my subjects especially my core coz i did not perform well last sem.I joined some interesting events this sem....the digital festia...something I nvr imagined I will be interested in.Well it is really rare for me to take interest in things like that but well I hit jackpot this time.Hopefully I can maintain my interest for it and do something meaningful out of it.BTW....the picture shown is my current msn pic...ayumi hamasaki.My very first idol.Although her standard is dropping I still cannot forget her as she is my first idol.Something special to me just like my Sailor Moon.I like this picture as it is kind of cheerful and hopeful even through it has the evening colours.Hopefully it can motivate me to remain cheerful and graceful through out this sem.

The Long Holiday Almost Over......

Well...I have been pretty lazy and slack this month as it is my long awaite holiday after the first grilling exams in uni. Well, glad to say that I survived the first wave with not very good grades, but the point is I survived but I got to work harder with the right method next term. I went out for a few outings in this month. Of course with my friends in uni like sijia n huiling n zhenglin ,with my jc group and of course my family. This holiday is not that bad as I do get to hang out with other ppl other than my family members which I think is good for me. Can't always be a kid n stick to my parents. The term is starting again n I got to slog again....well, trying to enjoy the process is something I still trying to pick up. Be gacefully in whatever I do and appreiate my effort whether it yields result or not is my motto. Never give up as like what someone puts in his msn message.....u got to keep breathing as tomorrow the sun will rise and who knows what te tide will bring. It really describes how I feel so let it be my ending line.

A bit lost....finding my way up....

Well....after so long I finally changed my msn Display pic.....my friends thinks that it is nice n I totally agree with them coz this is one of the nicer picture I have for naime amuro.Well there is a deeper meaning when I used this picture for Display pic coz naime amuro is a very successful artist with a very sad background.Lots of things have happened to her like unhappy marriage and mother committing sucide,but she still shines very brightly like a star despite the dark and unhappy memories she has.She is like a star that is able to endure the darkness of the dark environment of the big universe and shining out brightly and beautifully,lighting everything up and bearing the pain of the darkness gracefully.In a sense,I want to be like her when I am in uni,coping with the stress and homework pile to fulfill my dream,while bearing the pain and stress gracefully.However now I am still working on it as I am now sick....so not too graceful but still hopeful.My course is tough and I have to constantly remind myself that I nd to have enough passion to carry me this course for 4 yrs.I have friends to help me along the way but I still have to rely on myself sometimes, like java so nvr give up and must be endure all the way.I will see light oneday.

Life is tiring in uni......

Well,might be the homework load or I am physically weak and mentally weak myself,I find life in uni tiring and draining.It is fun in the sense that u have the freedom to do things u were nvr allowed to do in the past,but the process is undoubtedly tiring.School work is not any easier and the lecturer don't give a damn whether u understand or not.Their job is to teach,and only to teach,not to see if their students understand.Well,maybe it is a whole new system that I still not used to....maybe I should plan more,read lect note before lesson n after the day,at night read txtbk n wkend do tut.Hopefully I can stick to my plan nad sail through the first yr.I must constantly remind myself that nothing is hard if u got something to build on from.....this is abt the most useful thing I learnt in effective com....

A point of reflection in life.....

I realised something about me yesterday....why do I alwasys fail to achieve the things I want and nvr seems to get things done successfully.I always do things in the wrong way n in the wrong directions that make me seems inefficient.Like for the interview for the JAC sub com,I went for the post of publicitity but wasn't very successful in it and was about to enter into my depressed mode again when someone pointed me in the right direction,saying that I am more suited 4 the SP post.Going for the SP post interview was a a breeze and I actually enjoyed my interview as it felt more like a conversation than a formal interview.This shows that everyone has their strenghts n weakness and it is our job to identify our strenghts and to play our strenghts.No one is naturally useless so the only thing that makes the difference is at what pt of time in life does a person truely hows his strength and how to use it to his advantage.

A bit of sunshine in the toal darkness...

Well I got to be fair to say that life up here in ntu is not total stress n boredom.I do learn new things up here and changed to be a more socialable person that before.One of my friend actually said that she thought that I am quite a socialable person that made me realised how much I changed since I come to ntu.I suppose that everyone changes at different stages of life and that is wat that is happening to me, and I am certain that this change is for the better not for the worse.(hehe...me this type of antisocial ppl who loves to stone can become socialable is like a a mirale to me la)On the bright side I also got my own laptop too...so happy.Say bye bye to the lonely days in hostel without computer :)

Oh may a ray of hope shine on me....

I almost gave up hope in staying in hall for the next yr coz getting into main comititte is so hard....u got to go for interviews and print pamphalets to let ppl know u and must beg them to vote for u.For me, this is a bit hard as I have totally no experience in this field and I am not the type that like to fight with others for things,I only hope that wat ppl can get,I also can get so that I will be on par with them....but even achieving this is hard.In the end most of the hostel places will be allocated to the international students as their home distances pts is the highest.Singaporeans who live far from ntu will have to take the sufferings of travelling far distances to and from home...sign....

Is there any hope for our future?What a sad world....

I am feeling a bit low today.I always get rejected by people and nvr seems to be able to get my goals.Feeling like a complete failure today...why is life so hard for everyone?I don't seems to be able to view this in the positive light that I usually tend to view things with.Crappy people may say that it is the beautiful process of fighting for a better tml but to me it is just crude methods of getting into other's good books to get what they desire,and the society is encouraging it.Ya, and i know why,coz in econs there is this theory about earth having limited resoures and the demand is more that the supply so we got to fight for it.To gain good fighting skills,ppl got to start from young,u got to participate in cca n be the chairman so that it looks good on testimols,ppl like me who suffers from a bit of anti-soical behaviours will never survival in the real world.Everyone here is like got some kind of background,whether is it family or school,but just not me.CCA is just a channel where u get more pts,passion is not important anymore..even cca is like an presentation and interview..wat a sad world.

BONNIE PINK - Thinking Out Loud

Quite a nice album from bonnie pink.Can get it from me if u wan.

01. Gimme A Beat
02. Broken hearts, citylights and me just thinking out loud
03. Burning Inside
04. 慰みブルー
05. Imagination
06. A Perfect Sky (Philharmonic Flava)
07. lullaby
08. 坂道
09. Water Me
10. Catch The Sun
11. Chances Are
12. Anything For You

Another Jpop blog lives :o

Well,one of the Jpop blog(too fast to live) that I frequently visit is was on the verge of closing down as the owner cannot manage the uploading of music all by himself anymore.Luckily some ppl who visited the blog are now going to help him...so the blog finally nvr close down.It was a relief to me as it is really hard to find a website that is devoted to Jpop and so updated nowadays.Lesson learnt is that whenever there is a problem,open your month and get help from ppl,sure to get so help from ppl who appreaite your work :)

I am back from 6 days of camp

Well,the camp was fun and to be honest,it was the first time I was like very on for everything during the camp.I usually hate camps coz the icebreaker games always bore me off,but for the first time,I really enjoyed it.Partly may be due to me participating more enthusiastically than usual(hmm...maybe I am finally becoming less anti-social?).However,now I am suffering from a serious case of sunburn and now don't even feel like going out....sign.So I surf the net and found some beautiful korean dolls(the pic above is one of the dolls).The dolls is really beautiful but expensive too...

Namie Amuro-Funky Town

This is the video for funky town from namie amuro's new ablum-play

YUI-Can't Buy My Love

1.How Crazy
2.Rolling Star
3.It's All Right
4.I Remember You
5.Ruido
6.CHE.R.RY
7.Thank You My Teens
8.Umbrella
9.Highway Chance
10.Happy Birthday to You You
11.Winding Road
12.Good-bye Days
13.Why?

Yui is a relately new singer, being active from 2004 to present.Her voice is a bit babyish,even high pitch to some,but to me there is something geniune and sincere in her voice that attracts me.I first noticed her when I was watching bleach,she sang the 5th opening of bleach-Rolling Stars and believe me,It was really a great song.She also sang another song- life for one of the ending theme for bleach too and life is collected in her first ablum.The must listen songs in this ablum is rolling stars ,cherry,gd-bye days and how crazy.

A Little Incident With A Great Impact

Yesterday night,as usual I was helping my parents to go downstairs to feed stray cats,I was feeding the cats and the cats was eating the food.This is when a small boy(abt 4-5 years old) on his small tri-cycle with his parents approached the cat that is eating the food.The kid thought that the cat was cute and wanted to touch the cat,but the cat did not allow that as it is a stray cat and is afraid of unfamiliar people.Thus because the cat was not willing to let the boy touch,the boy was angry and stamp on the floor and made hissing noise to scare the cat away.His parents did not scold the boy for scaring the cat and just stand there watching him. While I led the cat to another corner to eat,I really wondered what kind of parenting do the Singaporeans have nowadays.To many it may seems just a normal incident but to me, it is an act of the parents encouraging the child to be cruel to animals.In a nutshell, parents are telling the kid that it is ok for the strong to bully the weak.Then it occured to me that maybe it is the nature for humans to bully and in the process of bullying,u get a sense of satisfaction when the victim suffer,so the kid is not so much at fault.Thus it lies in the responsibility of parents to teach the child that bullying is not the right thing to do, as the happiness u get from bullying is not true happiness as it is build on other's suffering.However,the parents that I saw was both disappointing and oblivious to the fact that that the kid just commited an act of bullying right in front of them and they failed to correct their kid.This incident really bothers me,and now I understand why bullies exists in all places.They are made up of people who did not have their bad habit corrected when they are young and this bad habit continue to grow and manifest themselves when they are adults.

Naruto-my favourite anime

For naruto,although it is a super long anime with 200+ episodes to date,it is a very interesting anime(with the only exception of the fuller arc from 136 to 220) which started from a troublemaker naruto who aims to become the leader of the village,the hokage to be accpeted by everyone.As the nine-tails monster is sealed inside of naruto,most of the villagers is afraid and hates naruto,naruto works hard to become a good ninja.As the story goes on,naruto slowly have friends like sasuke and sakura and some caring teacher like iruka and kakashi.During the many missions they do together,the friendship deepens between naruto and sasuke.However,sasuke's ambition as to kill is his brother Itachi(who killed the whole uchiha clan expect sasuke), sasuke deflected from konoha and follow Orochimaru to become stronger.As sasuke is one of his first bonds naruto formed with others,naruto swear to bring back sasuke to konoha.From then on,the story line changed to pursuring sasuke.This anime is my favourite not only of the meaningful plot that inspires people to work harder even they are not talented like rock lee,but also the good development of the characters and the maturing of the characters that is not found in animes like bleach.Also I am also highly attracted to characters like Itachi(in fact he is my favourite),wonder why someone so sucessful and talented can become so twisted to the point that he killed his whole clan.Naruto shippuden(espiode 220 onwards) focues the mysterious organisation Akatsuki(Itachi is one of the members) and revealing their true purpose.The picture above is a picture of Akatsuki.I can't wait to see more of naruto episodes and anyone who have not watched naruto,I will highly recommd you to watch it.

Bleach-the borderline anime

For bleach,the first 75 episodes have been very interesting to as it is one of the few animes that have this many characters(one of the strenghts and attraction of bleach) and displayed great potiential to become a great anime like naruto.However, it disppointed me when it enter into the bount arc, it become very long and draggy,taking up many espoides introducing the bounts and tracking them down.Finally after the bount arc,they started to introduce the arrancar,again they use the same techique, go slowly with each arrancar(whether the arrancar is important or not) and introduce them through a fight. While it may be fun to watch this way of introducing character for the first time in the save rukia era,it is not enjoyable to see the techique repeated for another few arc.While many of the episodes are used to describe bounts or arrancar which are of less importance to the storyline,many other characters like the captain of the 13 shinigami teams are very under developed. Then the very baisc characters like Ichigo and Toshiro Hitsugaya are too overly developed to whenever I see them appear I am so sick of them.If only bleach can develop its characters better then would it become a good anime.

Hikaru no Go-the nice but lenghty anime

This anime is all about a boy,hikaru who met a ghost Sai who really loves to play Go.Hikaru who knows nothing about Go eventually have his interest aroused when he witness the battle Sai played with a pro, toya akria and toya's father that hikaru started to pick up Go.Then a large part is used to desribe the long and difficult part for hikaru to embark and as he chases after akira,first becoming and insei to a pro.All this while,Sai is not supposed to help as hikaru wanted to use his own strenght to deafeat akira,not Sai's strenght to be noticed by akira.Towards the end,Sai disappeared and hikaru stopped playing Go as hikaru felt responsible for Sai disapeance.However, hikaru at the end of the story,realised that Sai is alive in him, through the style of playing he picked up from Sai that inspired hikaru to pick up Go again.While this anime is interesting to me,it is a bit too long,as much is used to desribe the path of an insei to pro.I don't really like the end due to the absence of Sai, otherwise I really have no complains about is anime.It is a hit or a miss type of anime,but it really will inspire anyone to love and pick up Go.

tactics-the good anime

I did not like this anime at first when i watched it.All that it talks about is how Ichinomiya Kantarou wanted to meet Haruka,the powerful goblin and together they solved some mystery cases.However,there are a few significant episodes,especially like the one where kantarou wanted to instill obedience in haruka as a master.The climate and the touching part was towards the end when haruka found out aboout his past and tried to kill kantarou,and haruka decided to leave kantarou for kantarou's safety. It was suzu's lingering soul,the small girl that always stick around with them, brought both of them together by telling them that it was her last regret that she could not see them together that her soul lingers around.

Tsukihime-The slightly boring anime

This is the anime I watch before rozen maiden.This anime is not so my taste as I cannot see much of what meaning the author is trying to put across and also I find the story line which revolve aroud the relationship between Shiki and Arcudeid boring.But it might be also the fact that I don't know how to appreiate the anime 's unique layout that I don't find it enjoyable.I stumbled upon this anime when I was searching for a singer named Ciel and instead I found this anime instead.Maybe it is fate or something?

Rozen Maiden-The 'ok' anime

Rozen Maiden is a anime that I have been watching now.Not that it is a great anime but it is still quite entertaining and good enough for me to spend my ample time I have at home alone...

Foxxi miQ-Gloss

1.THA F.Q'S STYLE FEAT.JIN
2.ULTIMATE GIRLS
3.I LIKE IT
4.HIGHER FEAT.B-BANDJ(FU-TEN)
5.CRUSH ON YOU
6.I'LL NEVER KNOW
7.DELICIOUS CIRCUS
8.A-L-I-V-E
9.GOLDEN PALACE FEAT.CORN HEAD
10.TASTE OF HONEY-GLOSS MIX-,A
11.LUXURY RIDE FEAT.ZEEBRA
12.MAGNETIC LOVE
13.PARTY BOOTY SHAKE FEAT.MISS MONDAY

Foxxi MisQ is a a female Japanese hip-hop trio.They are created to form to the 'Japanese' Destiny child.The three girls CHIE, YU-A, DEM take turns to be leader for the group.This group is so full of potiential that I would recommd it to anyone interested to try out Jpop.I will be keeping a look out for any future release by this group.

Hurray for the first post!!!

Hey ppl, since I am creating blog for the first time, don't expect my blog to be the best of the best among the numurous blogs available around.However, u can expect me to do my very best to do a good job so keep your fingers crossed for my new posting :)

Recent Jpop Ablums that caught my attention

Namie Amuro - PLAY[2007/06/27 On Sales

1. Hide and seek
2. Full moon
3. Can't eat, can't sleep, I'm sick
4. It 's all about you
5. FUNKY TOWN
6. Step with it
7. Hello
8. Should I love him?
9. Top secret
10. Violet sauce(spicy)
11. Baby don't cry
12. Pink Key